Friday, December 01, 2006
6:03 PM
Bittersweet ending...or is it the beginning?
Finally, i post again.
Not that i don want to post, so many things just have happened. For starters, i was away at ACE camp for a week(don wanna talk about it, it sucks though) and immediately after that, i came back but was hospitalized. It appears i had contracted Diabetes, a life-long condition. Not sure when, not sure how. I hit an all-time low. You think its not macho to cry? well yea, when i heard the news, i was freaking depressed. i cried myself to sleep everynight in the hospital. The pain wasnt physical. Sure, there were daily injections, about 6-8 a day, but that wasnt wad caused me hurt. Wad pained me was that i would have to take a break from rugby, my passion. I would be able to play again, but when, was up to God's will.
The days in the hospital were depressing. I spent 4 days in the CCU( Critical Care Unit) where i couldnt leave the bed.(HAD TO URINATE IN A BOTTLE. HOW DEGRADING!) And there was no tv, no nothing. The four walls, the beeping of the equipment, the sound of my driptube and me. thats all there was. There were many presents from people, from church, my family and friends. These things helped, but i still couldnt get over it. i had many caring visitors, all whom made my stay in hospital more enjoyable. The nurses were very good too, very caring and attentive.( By this time, the drip tube in my hand was aching)Finally, when my condition was more stable, i was transferred to the general wards.
When i was transferred to the general wards, I had more visitors, as here it wasnt so strict. My friends from church, rugby, school, family and friends came regularly, my mom was the best, coming back from hong kong to stay with me, at night only would she go home. Ian, from malaysia, and his family were very kind as to come down from KL just to see me and go back the next day, with Ian staying abit longer till i got discharged. Ian teo, Jude and Bernice, from church, visited me very very regularly too. Amos came too and yea all of them caring for me was really really boosting my morale. The hardest thing about this journey, was having to face the facts, that i was now a diabetic.
My stay in hospital held alot of surprises, and alot of....stuff happened. anyway, fast forward, and 14th november, is a special day. HEEHEE. lol so random.....ANYWAY....Went home....and yea, alot of stuff happened. seriously. 14th november, is the day i was discharged, and there was another reason. haha
ANYWAY, now im home, and here i am blogging. alot of Pplez have been talking to me via sms, msn, and yea loads of thanks to u all. Many thanks to the pple who visited and cared for me in hospital, and yes, thanks to my mother. O yea! thanks to 2 people for really cheering me up this past 2 weeks. haha i think u noe who u all are.
I guess this is the end. but no, my story doesnt end here. This is the beginning of a new chapter, a new stage of life for me, and im gonna live it to the fullest with no regrets cos yea, life is very precious.
Love ya all,
Matt<3
