Goodbye...

Monday, April 30, 2007

8:44 AM

As the times have passed, and i sit here thinking,
I cant help but find that ive been such a fool.
Why didnt i treasure you, why did i let you go,
But all thats too late now isnt it, nothing i say is gonna get you back.
Well, its not your fault, but i just cant stop loving you, even after 4 months.
After all that, my friends kept telling me, your not worth it, you were just a fling, but no.
You were not a fling, i loved you, i cared for you, i dreamt of you, yet...its over.
The day you punched a hole in my heart, i will always remember.
As i lay in bed, and your message telling me it was over ran through my head over and over again, I just thought, its the 13th floor, maybe if i jump off and die, maybe she would love me.
but i persevered, i kept telling myself i would win you back.
But from that moment i became emo, i cried everyday as my hopes got bleaker, i cried when you found your new love, i cried at your confirmation, cos i wanted to be part of your life, but you didnt want any part of it. I cried when over and over again, i asked you if you could give me one more chance and you said no. I felt as though you had punched a hole in my heart, like those they punch in your ic when u die, to show it cant be used anymore. When you left, you killed me.
All this time, ive been harbouring the hopes that maybe, just maybe, you would come back to me. I thought of the bracelet i gave you, i wondered if you still wore it, and whether you remembered what i told you. I even asked myself if you remembered when i told you i loved you. Well, now, i know that all those hopes, those thoughts, these things, for the past 4 months, have just been my wishful thinking.

So well, I guess theres no reason to live anymore, cos you left, and after today, i noe your never coming back.

Well, Goodbye you, Goodbye ****ed up world.

Emo Angel

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